Well. That was interesting. I had some very pleasant dreams. Wedge + feather pillows + heating pad + goodNite iPhone app + duvet + another blanket = sweet dreams. I don’t know how long that will last (do the challenges keep increasing?) but I’m glad I got at least another night of good sleep.

Also, not being completely afraid to go to sleep helps.

The Overcow is still snuggled under my arm, and I worry a bit about durability, but she is a Gund, so has a good pedigree.

… I actually want to take her to work with me, but if I left her there, I would be so sad this weekend. I guess having an Overcow at work will need to wait for OVERCOW-2007 to arrive next week.

Or I find the location of our team’s mascot plush. One day I found it, and ended up sitting with it in my lap through a coding session… and through a team meeting… and through an informal cube meeting… and at some point the senior engineer of our team said, “Why do you have a stuffed animal in your lap?” and then I stopped.

I feel better with the Overcow right now (I don’t remember if I did back then, but there must have been a reason it was in my lap for so long). Especially this morning sorting through my emails, some of which I allow websites to send me ’cause I like shopping, and it’s been rather… triggery. I want to hide my eyes from all the mentions of, you know, the F-word, but not the 4-letter version. Also the D-word. And anything mentioning That Date.

When I hold the Overcow tight (very tight) whilst reading the email, I feel better. Also when re-reading yesterday’s posts on the blog with the Word That Has No Logical Reason to Trigger Me But Does. I don’t know why any of this is, and when I try to google for “why do people like stuffed animals” I get nothing useful.

Anyways. Have to prepare for the day, somehow. I want to go back to bed, it was quite nice.