Still sick. Thought I was getting better, but I’m sicker again.

Three good things.

1. Resting in sunshine
2. Playing games on portable devices
3. Flight (little imaginative comics)

Writing: wrestling with a character I don’t really know is impacting my sanity. I just don’t know how to write her. I don’t know how to write professional, logical people. I am sad at my own lack of ability, and realize that the lack of professional behavior and logic on my part has held me back at work and in life.

I don’t know what to do. But I figure one can learn professional behavior and logic, so I will persist.

I’m such a failure.