PTSD B-Day #7

Tentatively, I’d say that I’m feeling better right now. That kind of statement has a way of hitting me in the mouth later in the night, or at least, screaming in my dreams or inside my head or something.

I get a bit breathless if I don’t keep my mind on something else. I’m not sure if passivity (reading a book or a comic) is better than activity (programming and trying to make decisions that will not upend our part of the back end). I don’t feel like I can make very good decisions right now.

And yeah, the startle reflex is pretty bad right now. Imagine if I had that when I was driving. This morning the reflection of sunlight off a car moving in someone else’s garage freaked me out.

Hopefully tomorrow is normal, better, and tonight is not Revenge of the PTSD Episode.