Category Archives: PTSD and Bipolar

Here’s an introduction to my PTSD. I’m also bipolar. It’s a stunning combination, that.

Commit log #6

Three good things:

1. The goddamned process at work that has been giving me on-call-style headaches has finally cleared up—at least for the time being, until it fails again, probably in the middle of the night, and I actually wish for a damned pager so I can clean it up ASAP, and I hate this part of my job so damn much, and really that’s a huge glaring sign that going back to a pager would only do bad things to me. I DECLARE VICTORY ANYWAYS.

2. Nectarine sorbet, something I actually made myself, using the Apricot Sorbet recipe from Lick It! Creamy Dreamy Vegan Ice Creams Your Mouth Will Love. It actually requires no preparation of simple syrups, though I need to try that sort of sorbet/vegan ice cream some day. Muhahaha, no more Mora’s, I can make my own awesome stuff, and it turns out pretty darn good.

3. Turned in my Hugo ballot, so now I AM FREE to read whatever I want! Currently I’m reading awesome secret stuff.

Fourth thing for extra credit:

4. Even though there’s a mess (or rather a history of messes) with Readercon, people are acting generally well and supportive, except for the weird ones that aren’t. It all boils down to: big-name fans should not get passes for sexually harassing others, which is what happened.

Fifth thing even!

5. My Nintendo 3DS has been encouraging me to take more walks. You get a play coin every 100 steps you take (which I think is too low), with a maximum of 10 coins per day. The coins can be used in a couple simple Mii-based games. I also actually get StreetPass tags, which allows someone else’s Mii to become a warrior or hand me puzzle pieces in the Mii-based games. Like I said, weird.

Reasons why I like myself:

  • At work, ownership is a strong force within me. This allows others to trust me to do my job (even if I don’t like it).
  • Can’t think of anything else right now. Gosh, I self-hate a lot. Not very logical or productive, and something I’m trying to change with this little section in the commit logs.

Life thingies:

How to keep from forgetting what previous commit logs say? I’ve been forgetful in the past. The only solution I can think of is to, every week, go over the previous week’s commit logs and write up a summary in the Sunday commit log.