The PTSD just comes along for the ride. Although it and the bipolar are having a hard time with spinning up hallucinations with the Abilify in the way, not that they don’t try really hard.

I’m on a leave of absence (unpaid of course), and I’ve decided to spend the days bettering myself in some manner and learning how to, somehow, deaden the anxiety attacks and other things. Somehow. I’m not sure how, except probably self-monitoring has a lot to do with it.

In the meantime, I’ve decided to call my project PB&J, or Project Bettering AJ.

Today I cleaned out part of the car in preparation for cleaning out the rest of the car tomorrow. This is so that I can start to donate a lot of junk in my living room to Good Will.

Every day from here on out will feature the following:

• Cleaning something out.
• Cooking/baking/etc. something for myself.
• Reading/watching something entertaining. ((In other words, not Terra Nova.))
• Reading/watching/doing something educational.

I will not take myself to task if I don’t finish the entire list, but it’s in order of time of day, with self-monitoring and meditation occurring as often as possible throughout the day.

And now… for a Liz Lovely cookie.