Living with the possibility of fail

Okay. It’s not yet the last day of November. I may still actually finish the first draft of the second book. I really need to finish it. I need to go into December knowing that I’m worth something more than work, which currently has this groove going on it:

Sacrifice: Your role may be thankless, but if you're willing to give it your all,  you just might bring success to those who outlast you.

Funny part is, if I were less principled, I wouldn’t be having that problem right now.

And the underlying question at work is

Worth: Just because you're necessary doesn't mean you're important.

If it weren’t for writing, I would cut ’em open here and now.

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4 thoughts on “Living with the possibility of fail

  1. I absolutely love despair.com. I have a sick, twisted sense of things though, so it’s all good.My snippet is up at Lori’s.

  2. Not finishing your second novel in November is not failure, Arachne. If you’ve written a lot of words in a short amount of time and developed new habits and seen what you can accomplish this month. That is the real prize and you’ve achieved it. Anything else that you achieve is gravy.

  3. Thanks, Lori. I’ll try to keep that in mind. I have this habit of reaching for the impossible and, sometimes, forgetting that the reason I reached for it was not so much to accomplish it but to push myself.Thing is, I have reached the “impossible” numerous times in my life. If I didn’t try for the heights, I’d still be in a rather bad life and probably dead by now.I just worry ever so much about myself. I don’t trust me at all. I don’t want to fall off the wagon. Argh. Yes, even despite that thing about reaching the impossible blah-de-blah.I think if I don’t try to reach for the impossible that I’ll stop trying. So I push myself beyond reasonable limits sometimes… ’cause sometimes you need to.Then again, this is probably a “you don’t need to” point for me right now.(And the voice inside me says, “But…”And another voice says, “On the other hand, Lori is extremely reasonable and you could use that right now.”Ah, the internal voices wars.)

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