Commit log #22

I almost forgot to commit the day to blog!

Three good things, that are not a repeat of yesterday:

1. I have two books I’m fairly certain I’ll enjoy: Stross’s The Apocalypse Codex and Scalzi’s Redshirts. I can think of them as rewards for work. Ah, work.

2. I got some difficult testing done at work. I’m paranoid about testing software before unleashing it on the world. I also learned a bit about cryptography. That’s pretty neat. And some more about Rails.

3. I’m thankful for my friends, blog commenters, Twitter followers, and the Overherd. I couldn’t survive without them.

A thing I like about myself: I like to learn technical things and I learn them fast.

Life thingies: I wish the screaming in my head would stop more often. This is supposed to be a good month for me. Oh well. A lot has changed, including climate patterns. I’m not settled and apparently the first 90 days in a new position/job are hard.

4 thoughts on “Commit log #22

  1. If you’re really serious about improving yourself, may I suggest that you prove it?

    How? By giving yourself a treat BEFORE you do work, just because you’re WORTH it. Read one of those books you are looking forward to. Do it deliberately.

    Your old model – no play before work – is a punishment model, a scarcity model. I’m not suggesting you flip to hedonism (you probably couldn’t manage it long-term, anyway – LOL). Just that occasionally, especially when you need it, you give yourself what Karen Pryor (Don’t Shoot the Dog – all about behaviorism and positive reinforcement) calls a jackpot: a huge reward when you don’t actually deserve it (according to you).

    It is easier for someone else to administer the jackpot (so I give you permission, if you need it). And jackpots are not effective if used too often. But – and other than gaming, where you can get lost for aeons – a book makes a nice jackpot. Finite.

    Just a suggestion.

  2. The first 90 days in a new job are hard like adamant. About six weeks into my most recent new job, I was going to bed at 2 am every day from trying so hard to have everything ready, and then getting up at 7, and around six weeks in I woke up at the alarm and though “I hate this, it’s not worth it, I feel sick.” Then I woke up a little more and remembered it would not be that bad forever.

    Indeed, it’s much better now. But even with being in a new position at the same employer, you are dealing with lots of new things. They all will take extra attention and energy until you settle in.

      • It was pretty much a gradual thing. There were transition points — things like ‘can now identify some tasks as routine’, ‘can carry out routine tasks independently’, ‘can remember and repeat the fix we used the last time we had this problem’ — but mostly it was smoother.

        The short description is that the first 90 days I was expecting to be fired almost every day, and the next 90 days I was still frantic, and after that I could feel fairly calm and confident. Even when I had to bring problems to my boss, I could tell these problems justified Boss Intervention and were not merely examples of me not knowing how to do my job.

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