Today? Not a good day. No nightmares, but the depression hit me very hard. I wish, really wish, this wasn’t happening.

And yes, I know that an author who will go unnamed has taken a swipe at someone she calls “Chairman Cow” and “its toys”. She was likely aiming that insult at someone else, but the coincidence and the specificity of the insult is disturbing to me.

Anyways. Three good things. Even if I don’t feel like it.

1. John Scalzi’s Redshirts was probably the best book I could have read today. With themes around self-agency threaded throughout the main story and the three codas, I simply felt better reading it. (There are also additional themes for those who write.) I didn’t expect a book this funny to make me cry as well. I think the last time I had this much fun was reading Pratchett.

2. The Overherd. They are fierce and comforting. I know Matthew, Cownt of Sofa, has been overnighting in my bed and it’s helped.

3. Sailor Moon Sailor Stars. I’m armed with Wikipedia information, enough to enjoy this season. I’ve watched the first episode of each season, and the last one is the one that impresses me the most. Plus I want to see the transgender sailor soldiers (man, there’s so many reasons this last season will never see US release). And Haruka, Sailor Uranus, is awesome. I have this thing for men and women in tuxes.

Things I like about myself: jury is out for tonight. I could say, “at least I don’t do the things that person X does”, but what are I gonna do with that, exactly? Can’t define myself in terms of other people.