I networked, and got in touch with other women engineers; we’re going to be setting up what will hopefully turn into semi-regular gaming nights, starting the day I start at my new position. I’m excited.
However, now that the retreat has ended, and I’m back by myself, I’m depressed and saddened, sometimes because I’m reminded that I need to face my current position on Monday and that I still have work to do this weekend; sometimes seemingly for no reason at all. I’ve been disappearing into Tamora Pierce’s books (in particular, First Test, Page, Squire, and soon, Lady Knight; actually my first venture into any of her worlds), but I can only do that for so much.
I’m on the edge of crying. My current team’s situation is pretty bad, and I’m not sure my manager truly recognizes that. And I have to think again about how I’m going to exactly phrase my feedback for him in such a way that he might actually listen to it. I honestly don’t know what’s going to happen at this point, because upper management seems to have noticed that something is awry. (Well, they probably should, given that by the end of this month, three people will have left within less than 30 days of each other.)
Supposedly as soon as I’m out of this situation I’ll feel better. I’ve felt like this for so long that such a future reaction is difficult to believe.
4 thoughts on “Life Under Siege”
Everything’s gonna be okay. As long as you’re breathing, you can get through anything. You’re tougher than you realize. Don’t forget all the wonderful things around you and about your life that are easy to forget. Sometimes it’s the simple pleasures that bring the most joy in hard times. :)
Thank you. :)
Nice to know you’re a woman engineer – I’m not sure I knew your profession before! – me too. That was the hard part.
There is a letdown reaction when good, productive things come to an end – and you have to go back to daily life.
I assume management got a chance to interview the other people who left? They can add all the responses people were willing to give – maybe they will learn something.
Yeah, if they haven’t gotten the message yet, they sure will by the time I leave. Or not.
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